Super Satisfied Client

This is one of my events which ended with super satisfied client. They are probably the best client i can have because they are really too nice to be true. I totally appreciate their understanding throughout the months before their actual event and they completely make the whole working relationship all worth it.

If all clients are just half as nice as them, i guess being in this industry would be all easy and perfect. 

When I was.. When We Were..

January is ending and i am still at the confusion and directional-loss stage. What happened? I thought by now everything should be on track?
I have never expect myself to be this miserable, to be in this kinda mess. I am so miserable and i do not know how much i can hang on here..

When i was 16, i met someone crazy and thanks to my persistence, i was able to get myself off that hook. Shortly after, i met someone totally loveable, totally without any hint of appearing. We dated and we got together officially; with the "NOT A NO" as an answer. We then goes through the simplest and even the toughest times together. What we often called the Ups and Downs..

When we were 6 years old, we couldn't pull through any longer..
Till now, we are still struggling. With love turning to hate...With almost zero percentage of chance to revive to who we were and how we were.

I have so much to say to him, to do with him.
I can't seems to be able to pretend i am all ok without him.
I can't seems to put my whole heart and soul to another anymore.
I lost myself without him.

Why is life doing this to me? Why do I have to go through hell before letting me see the best of us?

I am suffering and i know i made a grave mistake which i can never, never be able to be forgiven easily.
I lost my way in us, i can't find who i am anymore..

All i want now is, to be back to our days. Back to just you and me.
Back to the simplest days you often said to me.. Back to the just you and me world..
I finally understood what does the "simple you and me days" meant.

Why only now?

Count Down & Pre Cny Events

A few on-site shots grabbed for my blog.
New Year's Eve DND & Pre-Cny DND.

Lastly, wishing myself a Happy 23rd Birthday, (moderately happy is all i'm asking for now.)
And not forgetting, Happy New Year and Huattttt ahhhh....

Change

So many things happened and i don't even know where am i at now.
I have nothing to look forward to. From Nov's wedding to Xmas to marching into 2012. Lastly, Chinese New Year and of course my 23rd Birthday.


NOTHING.. Everything is changing..

Quick Glance of Eventful Events

my favourite ah-girl who is always assisting me
in office and my events.
To think i actually interviewed her during one of my event, casually.

dough figurine made specially for me before she left.

my happy friend! HAHA

The humble MP, Micheal Palmer

outdoor event always make us look exceptionally shiny.
i love her for helping me out despite the long hours
for this bloody St Regis.

the very diligent balloon sculptor i engaged.
he stayed for more than just his allocated work hours!

he even made me this bike before he left!

very nice of my caricaturist.
but wonder why must my legs open this big..

my hyper Donna before i sent her up to stage as Lady Gaga.

Go Hard

They have always been my favourite naughty girls.
They are also the ones who supported me by constantly reminding me to "follow my inner voice".

I really wanna be the Strong, Independent and Confident Woman they often see me as.
But they often not know that i actually see them as one instead and i wish i can be just half as positively strong as them..
I can do it.

Two Zero One Two

A new beginning of a year had just begin. Like, WHATTTTT?! In e blink of eyes..
Ushering into 2012 with a total change of me, i have to say..

To think back, i don't know what had 2011 done to me in precise but it was rather life-challenging i could describe, so far.
To be put into several tests and without a proper guidance, i doubt i fared very well anyway.

I am still in the midst of differentiation and having a mind of my own. Being able to be where am i now, is not easy honestly. Because whatever is coming from me will never be viewed the same and will never be right, not anymore..

Please just show me the directions..
I am just a girl afterall. If that's sufficient as a reason..

Christina Perri- A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more

Time stands still Beauty I know she is
I will be brave I will not let anything Take away
What's standing in front of me Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought Your heart to me

Warzone

I am finally sane enough to be able to bring my thoughts to words now.

Everyday feels like a war, an unbeatable one. I had never see this coming and never would have thought it will even happen.
There are indeed a lot to handle, to pull through but i hope both are within control as time passes..

I dare not foresee what's coming ahead for me, for us. All i know is that once choice is made and that we can only let the nature do the rest of the work.
Everyone else can play the love-hate thing to me now, but i guess what's most important is what being shared between us and ultimately how we felt about this.
As often said, i am now going to apply.
"If we are meant to be, we will be. Sooner or later."

I am choosing to be on my own now because i believe that's just my way of settling, for now. Each time i bring my heart out to someone, i know i'm just troubling another.
I will be good.. I just need to be alone..

When love is not madness, it is not Love.