Even Booze Can't Handle Me

There appeared a young couple, prolly about 18 or 19 years old when i was on my bus ride home after work. They sat near me and casually took out their mobiles and started snapping away. Fucking beat the fuck out of me ok, all sort of memories came flowing in. Something to add to magnify the picture, i just hung up the phone with Bb and i was crying the fuck out of me too.

Not that we had a bad relationship, not that we were going through some kinda breaking up, not anything that anyone could probably think of, out from the surface.
Maybe i should put it this way, what is me when all that makes me up is not exactly myself but actually someone stronger? Which in turn leads to the ultimate million dollar question here; what am i here for in precise?

I was literally being thrown into a place or typically classified as a long drama series that gonna be directed and will only be in continuation if i ever know how to. This is when i meant being ever strong, stronger.

Many a time, i mentioned about how much i wish i could be this and that, that and this. Just how much this is going to help? To be honest not very much helpful. But i can be extremely assured on my part that i did at a certain point, preached what i said.

I was on a Management Development course from my company last week and guess what. Here is one golden catchphrase which i brought home at the end of it and i will be bringing it everywhere i go, hopefully.

"I can't give you the formula for success but i can give you the formula for Failure. Trying to please everyone."

Regardless at work, in life, for yourself and for anyone..

Just before this was strike, my colleagues who were there at the course, mentioned this to me when i poured out what was in botheration of me at work.
Everyone hears it even when they dun see it. I really starts to doubt my own ability very much. So much so that i am in such a low morale each day at work, with people, at home and even when i am with Bb.
Teaching me to be firmer, stronger? Not that i can see or even feel of, so far.
There are just too many expectations to meet. I am not cater to everyone nor am i able to please everyone.

I was at KPO with the group of them last week and i always feel that, drinking is bad for health but each time i am at it, especially with them, i seems to get smashed for a real reason. You know what is e REAL booze they believe in? Wine.

Anyhow, i m now a Blackberry user. I still love iPhone as my entertaining conpanion dun get me wrong. Sometimes we need a switch, is just like saying, you can't always be having fun. Theres always a serious substance to take care of. Ah that was just some random interlink! DUN GET TOO SERIOUS! ;)

As usual, Bb never fail to take care of me inside outside. Even when it comes to wants and needs. He got me the Blackberry, by hook or by crook, in any means. Not that i am drawing it big, but i can never deny how important this big piece to the formation of me really matters.

National Day's accomplishment? I slept alot. I din even on the TV for any special program. We literally rot the time off sleeping and watching movies and practically, wasting time away.
Trust me, i needed that very much.

Back to shit, i was expecting emails and more emails today. I dunno when was e last time i can step in on dot or later than 9am and leave on dot and later than 6pm.
I get shit from work, i get shit from school, i get shit from home.
Believe me when i said, i was fucking happy when i came back with no one at home. Believe me when i say one day i be coming home and enjoy the time and place of my own or with only people i love. Because i am as good as myself now anyway. I dun remember having a home if anyone could kindly define me a H O M E.
Oops, once again, not that i am having a broken family, not that i am having a bad relationship with my family. NONE of those. Just that i guess everyone have a definition of their own of a home. So when it doesn't tally with mine as of now, i regard as i do not have one.

I need a rest. Good night.

3 Inch Sin

Welcome to 3Inch Sin.
My next favourite place.

dun we human always have something to say about this?

Mini Molten cakes with Rum and Rasin Ice Cream
I swear, these mini molten cakes makes me
have a different perspective of chocolate.
(but still, never will be into chocolate)

besides the only usual lipton tea i had,
guess what? the next tea i am into now is this.
Earl Grey Tea.

HAHAHA

Too short of a celebration for our Anniversary the previous night and the demanding sweet-tooth girlfriend just will never give up the idea of pestering the boyfriend for more yum yum mum mum!
So the yummy boyfriend probably decided to shut the girlfriend up by driving her there on one afternoon like this. :D

This is one sweet find. Great service attitude, limited choices on menu but definitely worth giving all a try. Especially their recommended Molten cakes!

The reason why i always love food/dessert hunting is that, they prolly set up their business small FIRST and therefore, all sort of new tricks, new tries, new layout etc be there! And i am definitely loving all these. Cosy is another word i can bring in. I will definitely find it all worthwhile to be loving to move around even to the extreme dead end in certain part of our country! Oh but please, never by legs. :)

I am for sure going back to this SIN. Because this may be one of the TEMPTATION anyone out there can seriously not resist.

The Reach of Our Half A Decade

Your love is a symphony,
all around me,
running through me

Your love is a melody,
underneath me,
running to me,

Your love is a song..

Happy 5th Anniversary!

Cheers with our
French Martini and Expresso Martini

Guess what, there is a new love to my fish-list.
Seabass.

Nothing but cheesy choice for him.
Truffle Mac & Cheese
From what i see, it doesnt taste as fantastic to him.

Baby has a thing for my irritated face i suppose.
And i was indeed.

as usual, i always love receiving cards.

and me? i never fail to be out of the "ordinary".
never something fanciful (cos i am never a art person)
but hopefully my written words weight more
than just the exterior design.

my happy man.

we always change wallet at the same time
because we always buy each other wallet at the same time. :)

Finally, Finally im here.

My Apple's choice.
Those pieces of dry apples placed on top of the ice cream,
erm, not very promising indeed.
Nevertheless, ice cream and pie was totally toothsome.
(well, at least for a sweet-tooth like me)

so long there's a really chocolaty choice, its hardly for me.
BUT, once again, the brownie here isn't such a turn off to me
afterall.
(maybe because theres abit of my favourite caramel syrup
to mask the whole black idea for me!)

I hope you like the out-of-the-black idea. :)

And needless to say,
he should noe how much i am lovin' this.
Hes way too observant for what i really want.
I really dun remember saying anything about these
in front of him.
but he said i did.

Our 5th Anniversary has all the reasons for me to really remember hard.

-It falls on a Friday.
Good news for me because its always a TGIF mood. (thats what i thought so initially)
Bad news for him because it just carries, "army never let people off on time". (indeed)
-I coughed my lungs out and lost my voice.
-My workload piled up and i was being quarantined in Alvin's room
-Papercuts can be too much for me.

Ultimately, I only finished my work at 7pm and he came out at about 8pm!
I was really upset, very very upset.
I called up several reservations just to secure a space even till as late as 930pm. It kinda defeat the purpose of the dinner if most restaurants be having their last order at about 10-1030pm? Anyhow, i was just wishing for time to crawl slower for the first time.

One thing for sure, i couldnt find any reason to deny the fact that he was really being patient enough and being extra persistent on the dinner.
He knew how much i been waiting for the day, he knew how bad my work is giving me, he knew about close to everything. So much so that when i actually saw how he rushed up to change and get my present while leaving me in his ride to wait, i knew i have to shed those tears away and pack up those negative feelings away instantly. And i did.
After a short 10mins, i saw him running down with a ugly paper bag (but inside was just too much of a surprise), with his non-waxed hair. I knew i wanted to hug this man so badly! :(

As short as our night may seems to be, all i can say it was all a worthwhile and memorable one, once again.
I was sorry about my flare ups and i can only seems to love him more and look forward to even more years to go.

Happy 5th Anniversary, once again.