Horsy's First Bday With Son

WE ARE FINALLY HERE!!!

Quoted from Eryi: VERY POPULAR ONE LEH!!
TOP 50 CHEESECAKE!!

this is my boyfriend, yes.
very irritatingly love.
"not 400 500 hor......"

"i m holding a knife...."

"sorry peeps, i need a nap"

next up, this got me excited.
one of the icecream place in my list.
L I C K

DON'T U HAVE TO AGREE THAT
HE CAN JOLLY WELL JOIN THE BABY MODELLING? WELL, AT LEAST THERES ME
WHO CANT AGREE MORE!
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Lucien, u are too handsome for me to handle!

Eryi's Choice of Icecream colour attracted him!

sorry, not attractive enough.
but this is Xiaoyi's all time favourite flavour.
HONEYDEW & Lychee.

"no thank you. im too young for this attractive
cold cold dessert"

"check out my tummy. wan to have a roll?"

Lucien, u are getting heavier each time.
keep it up.
i can have little mouse on my arms! :)

Horsy is 1 year OLDER again!
BUT, upgraded to a MUMMY of one lo!

The mother and son's first bday together!

I was looking a mess and feeling a mess as well for the day. Not that i wanted to but damn, my menses came that day and was feeling the worst of the worst! And yea, not forgetting that i jus finished my ultimate fucktard paper of the day.

Lucien, as usual, being the happiest child and everyone can just stop focusing because of his presence.

Horsy as usual, looking as youthful as ever. Who wants to follow her? ME ME ME!
Since we gained weight together, can we slim down together as well?

The Speed Of Time

When everyone is asleep and i only have a radio who seems to be the only alive thing because it sends in pple's voices almost instantaneously, what's the next thing i did to divert my attention from further stress blockage,
TAKE PHOTOS LO!!!

Anyboo~
Did i just see myself letting my blog rot for like exactly a week? Ya la aber then!!
Because i am finally done with my paper on Friday and honestly speaking, i can only hope for the very best for it as well as my new work which i just started yesterday.

Today was only my second day at work and people seems alright. Bosses seems friendly enough, colleagues are pretty much workable, seemingly. Because im still a newbie and the one who is suppose to pass down work was on leave till tml. So to speak, tml may be the day for me to get busy officially.

Everything in this office is almost like a 360degree change from my past experiences.
From the working environment to the culture of the company.

Like Boar said, it may not be a bad thing to be the pioneer of this post. But that doesnt mean i have got to be hopping around people's desks!
I am issued a personal laptop with own personal office email. And guess what, i have yet to get my office pass applied. Yes, i have got to do it manually, much tat i thought this should be done before i entered!

My meditation and alone time cut short very much ALOT. I think time is so important now, or maybe im used to be idling even at this timing and still thinks that the night is still young.
Now? I just want to get a few of my thoughts blogged out just so to have abit more space for more new thoughts to be borned in there. And set myself a time frame for anything i do at night. Anything! From talking to phone to even sitting down to catch a few moments of my own.

I met my baby, LUCIEN. (baby bryan is still in my head 24/7) HAHAHA.
And not trying to be a emo drama mama, but i felt like hugging him to sleep. (though i noe he can be one bothersome in some other ways, like pooing and throwing tantrum.)
Left with not many choices for Horsy, school is e only way out.

Lucien, Xiaoyimeimei noes and feels you totally when i see you just now. Really.
U r such a strong baby and im sure all u need is just time.
Always be strong for everyone dotes on you and always want to contribute even by a little just to show tat we really really cares.
We all stay strong for you!

Xiaoyi is having a bad bad bad bad x infinity ache at the back of the shoulder. Always facing the backache problem me, this ache is something new added in. Ah shucks.

And Baby, BRYAN.
He just broke the ultimate sad news to me that he be leaving me 3 fucking shit long head weeks for Thailand training in August.

5years and trust me. We NEVER leave each other for so long BEFORE. Not even once.
3weeks seems short or prolly peanut to certain ones. But to us, is like the whole main challenge.
Especially the fact that i just started moving on and not even on track yet.
He is sad, i am very much sad too.
We are sad. YA LOR, i just typed SAD. Simple word, SAD. This simple SAD really is the only word to describe for such a case and for such an instance for us, and for now.

Get that? About TIME again.
Dun waste time, really. Theres really alot alot to go. For me at the very least.

Ok i m running out of time, because is 1252am now and i need to rest my system by 1am THE LATEST. Cos i dun usually fall right into sleep. My mind never stop running..

When Manager said, "i dunno how soon", this is seriously not helping me! It only obstruct me from reaching to my "MY LIFE IS STABLE NOW!" statement! My request is just something really light for me to begin with. I can chop toes chop fingers that this is just the basic among the basics for the very basic me!!

Ah fuck it, i be seeing the on-leave lady tml. TML IS THEN MY FIRST DAY LA HOR.

Just so much for my waiting. In regards to anything!!

As Little As It Is, It Can Still Paint A Happy Picture

Time check: 350am

I find it hard to focus on revision already. Not even a tiny wee bit left! As "heng" as pple see i am for having only ONE module left, its not that HENG afterall! I mean, e lesser motivation i have and more it seems like im not gonna pass this one and only module quickly.

Sgt Lim gets to stay out for the whole of this week and its so the wrong week! Guess what made me a happy girl for a evening?

TA DA!!!!!

Baby asked me why i could get so excited over such little and prolly not very significant items to my list usually. I couldnt give an answer because i dunno why too.
Always been a Hello-Kitty lover me, just can never get enough of her. So as little as these is, i just find the amusement not as little!

I never hide the fact that i love Hello Kitty up till this age and never will. I ever receive comments like, "WA CHEENA LEH LIKE HELLO KITTY!" "THOUGHT U NEVER LIKE CHILDISH STUFF!" etc.
It really doesnt matter much to me honestly. To put it across like this, i have got this very much freakish love for HelloKitty since the very tender age, so i absolutely forgive myself for loving this no-mouth cat up till today. On the flipside, i believe no one can catch up the fetish or whatever we call for liking something like HelloKitty, with just a snap of finger. In another word, as quick as one goes, "I LOVE HELLOKITTY!!"
Just how much so? Just how does it happen? Shes been there for like 30odd years and one only starts gaga-ing or crazing over her, like, NOW?! Or recently?!

If u say u LOVE BENTEN, ok, i totally understand.

Alright, my kids are calling out to me to join them in bed.
2days left to EXAM and i seriously dun feel the sense of urgency that much YET. Though i have got to admit im already stressing. STRESS and URGENT both carries different explaination.
So may stress and urgent meet as soon as later. I think they make a more perfect couple to deal with me.

Shithead Best Friends

i looked TOTALLY crap. and she said,
"SO CUTE"
she never fail to go against me.

hi there! its our pinkies again!

SHITHEAD SHITHEAD SHITHEAD!
Shes totally loving this from me. Beats me why but when i scolded her that when she was about to be late, AGAIN, she couldn't stop laughing.
And we have been shit-heading all the way, this shithead!

I took only about 40mins to get ready cos i thought she gonna be early and i never like the idea of someone waiting for me. (not that i like waiting for pple too!!)
So i randomly took the most casual outfit and zoom i went.
THEN SHE JUST HAVE TO MAKE ME WAIT! SHITHEAD.

Ok anyway, FOR THE EVER FIRST TIME, she was the one feeling her worst of the worst outfit.
She was saying that its mostly me who is complaining away just so i can find the correct excuses to get new clothes. Shithead her. She may be right sometimes...

She was in total high spirits. Trust my words, really high high spirits. Ah well, after almost a year, something so sweet just have to happen to her. No wonder she just couldn't stop jumping in joy.
I was also quite taken aback by this VERY abrupt, so called surprise? Just what on earth is happening man.

We marked that day together.
She gotten her fair share, but i dun seems to have any. And prolly not anymore. Instead, like she said, it will forever be left there hanging and only be ongoing within the same circle.

Whatever the case is, i just hope this pleasant surprise is just a reward for her after so long of her not so-great-days and it will and never be continued.

I hereby wish for a miracle to happen and also hope for the very best for the upcoming days ahead of me..

CHEERS, SHITHEADS!!